'Letters Never Posted'

Friends, its been long that I have any new post on my blog. All my dreams of being a writer was over shadowed by the busy-like-a-bee type of lifestyle, I was living in. Yeah honestly, if I think for a while, there was nothing for me to be busy with. Was I just acting busy, or was it a mode of escapism from this virtual world. Whatever be it, I have many writings at stock. But for today, I'm posting this one called 'Letters Never Posted'. My dear friends, do read it with feelings, and you may understand something about life...

*Letter 1*

To my love,
You know I have been a confused type of guy since a few years. I am always in dilemma about everything that comes to me. Sometimes I fear that, maybe I was having some kind of nervous breakdown. I stopped enjoying the company of friends; I liked staying lonely, always locked in my room. Not for a single moment during the last few years, had I thought of anything else except you. The sun of my life had set three years back, and I am still in search of moonlight. I remember, when you were with me, everything seemed new and fresh to me. The sun shone more bright, the air smelled fresher, and as if I had a new purpose for living in this world. I didn’t care for anything else, when you were beside me. I knew every time when I would fell down, you will be there to hold me. But at last, when I learned to stand by myself, you were no longer with me. Those empty school corridors, those empty dark streets are still fresh in my mind. I can feel holding your hands even now. I wanted to have my last breathe by your side; I wanted to share each and every moment of my live with you. I wanted to live your sorrows and give my happiness to you, because you meant something for me, something…that was everything to me. I always wanted to walk by your side, but last time when I looked back for you, I forgot that you had already taken a different path…and I was lost in the crowd. I kept searching for you; I remained in the rain, just to calm down myself. A piece of my heart has always been with you, when I saw you for the first time. I long to see you in front of me and just for once I want to hug you again and ask you the reason for leaving my hand forever.

(Anonymous)

*Letter 2*

To my love,
You know I have always been a calm girl. I had many feeling buried inside me, but was always afraid to let them come out because I didn’t want the least worry to come to you. You were more than the prince of my dreams for me. Because each time I saw you in front of me, I lost myself to you. I used to fell in love with you, every time I saw you. When you hold my hands, I had nothing to worry about in this world. I would blindly follow you anywhere. Sometimes, I remember those empty school corridors and I see you there on the other side, stretching you arms for me, I want to run and fall inside your arms, but my legs don’t move. I cry standing there and where I look up to see you again, you are not there. Sometimes, I cry even when I am happy, because I wanted to share each and every moment of joy and sorrow with you. I would have always stood by your side. I always prayed to God that I should die before you. Many a times when you were broken, I couldn’t control myself and I would run and come to you and help you to stand up again. I liked when you walked beside me, and I wanted to be with you forever. And amidst of all these, for once I closed my eyes, and when I opened it again for you, I never came to know that, you were walking faster than me, and I missed a few steps and lost the way. I didn’t go anywhere, but I stayed there, hoping for you to come back along the same path and take me with you again. I waited so long, my eyes pained looking at the horizon just to see your shadow, but you were not there. You know I had lost myself to you when I saw you for the first time. For once, I want to see you beside me and ask you just once that, why didn’t you come back for me.

(Anonymous)